I was 12 years old when dad sexually abused and sexually touched me without my consent on multiple occasions. Here is the very first time he sexually abused me when I was 12:
It was an Sunday afternoon and my family just got home from church earlier that day. Mom took my oldest sister and my two youngest brothers out for shopping. My other siblings and I were home alone with dad while mom was out. Before mom left, she told me that I needed to get my youngest sister and I’s room clean before she get home later one that day. So I went downstairs into the basement right away where the room that I shared with my younger sister and started to clean up the room. I heard mom, my older sister, and my two younger brothers got into the white van that seated 11 people all at once and I heard the van was started up. I looked through the window of the basement window and I saw mom started to pull out of the drive and drove away. I went back on picking up the toys on the floor and putting them into the correct bins that mom had for our toys. After about 10 minutes of mom being gone from the house, dad had my other brothers to go outside and play because he needed some quiet in the house. So my brothers got excited and rushed outside without their shoes on. My younger sister told dad that she didn’t want to go outside and dad told her that she can be on the living computer while the rest of the kids are outside playing. I thought to myself, “of course dad would have my younger sister be on the computer in the living room, my younger sister like never go outside to play but whatever. I would chose to play outside more than a stupid computer, oh well.” Then about 10 minutes later, I heard dad was coming down the basement stairs and I thought he was going to check the washer and dryer to see the status of the laundry. When I heard dad reached the bottom of the stairs, I heard him come into my room and when I turned around, he was at the doorway of my room.
I asked dad if everything was okay and is there something I need to do. Dad had a smile on his face and shook his head no, which that made me a little scared because I thought it was weird how dad was acting towards me. Dad walked over to me and put his hand inside my shirt and onto my back, I tried to step back from dad and asked him on what he is doing. He told me that he wanted to show me what a man would do to a woman when he really loves the woman. I told dad to please take his hand out of my shirt and mom would be very angry if she finds out that he put his hand in my shirt. Dad told me it’s not a big deal and also mom will never find out that this is happening if I keep my mouth shut. I told dad that I am going to tell mom if he doesn’t take his hand out of my shirt now and he started to kiss me on the lips very hard. I tried to push him away but he was stronger than me and he push my body against him. Then he moved his other hand into my shirt and started to squeeze my right breast hard. i tried very hard to get away from him but I couldn’t. after he was done kissing me, I looked down and I saw the front of his pants a little wet and I asked him if he peed himself a little. He chuckled a little and said he didn’t and then he pinned me onto the floor with his hand on my neck. I told him to please stop and I want to be left alone. He just smiled at me and he reached his free hand into his pants and pulled his penis out of his pants. Right then and there, I remembered what happened to me when I was younger and I started to cry. I told dad to please don’t do this and he said well I love you a lot so i have to show you my love to you.
He reach over and started to pull my pants down and I reach down and tried to keep them on my waist so dad couldn’t get them fully down. Dad got frustrated and used his strength and yank my pants fully down and out of my grip. I told dad to please don’t do this and I was willing to do extra chores so he doesn’t do this. Dad looked down and gab his penis and shoved it into my vagina. I yelp in pain and told him to stop please and he said I seem a little dry down there. I was confused of what he meant and before I could ask him he started to thrust inside me. I started to cry harder and told him to stop and I feel like i was bleeding down there. Dad told me that I am okay and my body was built for this and boys and girls do this to each other all the time. I cried to him to stop now and he started to thrust even deeper and hard in me and he start to kiss me very hard to the point it was hurting my jaw. Then he took his hand off my neck and wrapped his arms around me and continue to thrust in me. I tried to get away from him but he used his strength to keep me where I was. Then a little bit later, I suddenly felt dad thrust extreme deep inward in me and he started to moan a little bit and I felt that same warmness in my vagina. I kept feeling more and more of it filling my vagina up and he would slightly move outward in my vagina and before more filled me up, he would thrust in deep again. then when he was done ejeculating in me, he started to thrust inside my vagina more and was telling me how much of a good girl I was. Then after him thrusting in me for about 5 minutes, he slowly withdrawal his penis out of my vagina.
I felt some of his sperm coming out of me and I tried to get up from the floor but he pinned me down again and told me that he wasn’t done. I cried and asked him what he means and he said I have more inside me and I want to give you a double reward for being a very good girl. I saw scared and told him that I didn’t want it and he looked down at his penis and started to masturbate his penis in his hand. He then looked at me while masturbating and he told me that he feels my reward coming again and I told him I don’t want it at all. Dad just smiled more at me and put the tip of his penis on the outside of my vagina and move it up and down on my vagina with his hand. I told him to stop it and he said too late it’s coming and I saw him starting to ejectulate again on the outside of my vagina and while he was ejectulating, he shoved his penis back into my vagina and I felt more of his sperm going into me. Then he thrust a couple more times in my vagina and he said that felt so good to him. then he got off me and put his penis back into his pants and told me to clean myself up.