On this part of the website, I would be explaining the abusive events that happened between my mom and I while I was growing up. She never heavily abuse me when I was very young but she started to do that once I hit around 9 years old. She was my main reason while I was growing up that I became depressed and wanted to commit suicide while living with her, my dad, and my siblings. I always wanted to make my mom proud of me and it seemed like no matter what I did, she didn’t show me any signs that she was ever proud of me. Yes, I did yell at her and told her that I wish I was never born into the family I was in growing up, I did make her cry many times but then I regretted what I said to her in the heat of the moment. I was always scared when mom was going to be home for the whole day when she started her new job after years of being an at home mother. I was always scared when I wake up the next morning and I see mom already awake and dad wasn’t home. Recently, I have finally forgave my mom in my heart for what had happened but I am still scared to react out to her even thought at times I wanted to.